i once felt
like nothing could ever be wrong
then reality sunk in

pill
pupil
smoke
high
water
laugh
smoke
pill
pill
pill
smoke
water
_down

pancakes and waffles
drugs and alcohol
hugs and kisses
fights and death
smiles and contentment
hate and war
love and lust
sweet intoxication and synthetic glee
peace and joy
reality and deception
support and friends
warped judgement and impaired thoughts

still left here hanging..

..shitbag♥

Current Location: Computer room
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Naked Girl Avalanche - Four Letter Lie

its just occured to me that i only write in here when im mad. im not mad now.. just over all this drama... its lame. lame lame lame. lame with a capital E. haha subliminal messaging? i dont know.. dont look at me. otep is the shiznit. like hxc man. oh now ive gone and been all cool. you love me. admit it. and i really have to pee.
some final words: make up your mind and do something. dont leave me hanging.
dickface ♥


I once
Dreamed of a world
Without consequences
Without reminders
Of this
Brutal
Gutter
I am collapsed in
Once I dreamed
But then
I
Woke
Up

Current Location: my house..?
Current Mood: weird
Current Music: nein - otep

fuck fuck shit fuck fuck

that is all.

Current Location: confusedy land
Current Mood: crappy
Current Music: wish you were here - matchbook romance

lalalalalalalalalalalaaaa
ho hum
tea and crumpets.


okay, so.

there is a certain someone who should go to jail for publically whacking off in a movie theatre at the sight of all the pre pubescent kids and get ASS FUCKING RAMMED BY A FUCKING DIRTY MEXICAN NAMED WHOREHAY WITH AN TWENTY THREE INCH FUCKING SCHLONG

and another should be forced to shave off all his body hair because hes a self absored BASTARD who hurt MY fucking step sister. ON TOP OF THAT he should be forced to take out all his piercings, then but the barbells and such in a durex condom and then the condom should be FORCIBLY SHOVED UP HIS ANUS. Id be there with the hot wax.



and theres another boy who is a cutie. ♥

Current Location: 123 stupid house, isolated from everywhere, freezing land
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: The Bloodening - Johnny Truant